What Do We Really Want In Life?

Hi,

I got a bit caught out today, just in time to get at least one post for May. Can’t believe it is already the end of the month. A lovely day though. Time to right at least one blog this month. It looks better doesn’t it? More active, the search engines like it better too.

Even this small communication from me begs the question…what do I really want in life? Because up until now so much of my life , it turns out, has been run by desires and thoughts that remain unconscious. Until of course something painful comes a long to wake me up!

In my case it was the collapse of my property business, death of someone I loved, and the realisation that the direction I was going in my life was more or less completely contrary to my purpose and values.

How could it be possible? I consider myself a reasonably good person, spiritually practical, wanting the best for my wife and family…or am I?

Turns out I was wrong. In fact I am just the same as everyone eles , basically self – interested. But at least now I know. I am no different from anyone else at heart. What a great revelation. We’re all the same!

Self – interested.

Looking outside especially for the things I thought I wanted. To be a millionaire, debt free, loads of time to pursue what I enjoyed with my friends and family. A loving marriage.

Except my self-interest prevented me from having it all, that is, what really counted. I got very very stuck looking for what I wanted.

Deep down I knew it was happiness I sought, and that was to be found on the inside, not in the money or status or things. In fact money I found out was a real issue for me which unless I could deal with it in an aware, integral way, would always be an issue come to haunt me. Something I served rather than serving me. A constant restlessness for more and more and more, never seeing the abundance that is all around, inside and out. Never knowing when enough was enough.

The quest isn’t over, will it ever be? Well perhaps for the very rare enlightened individual , the quest may be over. But for most of us, we are still looking for that happiness, peace and imperturbability. Which is actually right here, right now.

Its never left you and me.

Now isn’t that good news?

Till the next time.

Love and peace,

Gavin